"I'm not opposed to exploring more of this... Newfound dynamic between us, if you're willing."
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It's been a while since I decided to create something fully rendered. Had spent a lot of my time on this one trying some techniques and restructuring my process. Though I found myself back on the same pitfalls I had when I struggled to break my glass ceiling, they don't frustrate me as much. Rather, I'm a lot happier simply because I finished something.
I've been on-and-off with this project, frankly; things have just grown terribly busy on my end with my work having become regular. Well, that, and me popping in and out of the mountains on a regular basis on the weekends to either go camping or paddleboarding. Hah.
Anyway. More of my Nameless Scion. As I've mentioned in a previous sketchdump, she died in her old world and was reborn in this new body, while still retaining her old memories. That said, because of these experiences, she has a wealth more patience than most of her peers, though that doesn't stop her from quietly roasting anyone in the back of her mind, especially during the events of A Realm Reborn. Her experiences have also allowed her to have a generally more open mind about trying everything and anything... Including the exploration of her own sexuality.
As this hovered over my head these last several weeks, I found myself just projecting into her. Like with my other OCs, a lot of her development has been mostly tied to my current frame of mind—workaholism, general indifference, love for the outdoors, an interest in multiple hobbies, to name a few that has shaped her identity. Perhaps it's the fact that I've been living a healthier life, but having an OC like this, unapologetically apathetic to whatever means little in the grand scheme of things... Unapologetically scarred yet confident, unashamed to show just how feminine she is and can be despite her imperfections... It's inspiring. It makes me feel good about myself. I have a lot of admiration for the kind of person she is and what she represents for me: someone who is unafraid to live her life to the fullest, unbound by limitations, while still staying grounded to who she really is at her core.
It's spurred me in recent days to try things I otherwise wouldn't have done. Typically, they're a lot of outdoorsy things, like camping and paddleboarding, as I mentioned previously. Coupled with my physically active job and working out to lose weight, I feel a lot lighter. Thinner. It's easier to breathe. I have a better outlook towards my body and fit into clothes I previously struggled to.
And that just makes me feel more confident about... Well. Showing more of that. Being a little more revealing when I'm paddleboarding or swimming rather than covering so much of myself up. I often find myself thinking, "Maybe I want to show off a little more skin and feel sexy..." Or something. It's a little silly. 😆 Nonetheless, I feel a lot happier now from just being inspired by this, though I also know I've still quite a ways to go to hit some of my health targets.
This art piece was meant to just express all that. Express how much I admire my OC and her femininity. Ergo, she's hot and I would totally bang given the opportunity. 😏
